And the winner is...

OK. Let me begin this by stating that I am still in shock. I have no idea how I managed to do this, but I may very well be having the best breakout year ever. I have only been burlesque dancing for a few months and I cannot believe all that has happened. I took 2nd place in a Star Search Competition, which has won me my performance spot in this years NEW YORK BURLESQUE FESTIVAL, and now, I have been nominated for the Hottest Freshman Golden Pastie. 

I can't believe my luck. The amount of gratitude I feel for everyone who has supported me along the way, I can not possibly fully express. 

I hope I win it for all of you. 

http://www.thenewyorkburlesquefestival.com/goldenpasties.php

xoxo

wait...

I have all of these feeling slowly brewing inside of me and I don't know what to do with them.

I know I wanted them.
I understand that I was the one who asked for them.
I realize that I was the one who chased them, who begged for them to take root inside of me.

But now what?

These feelings have gotten to a place where I am know longer in control.
I fought so had to nurture them... to keep them safe.. to lock them away.. to smother them.
But now they are ready to leave me. And at this point, I don't know what to do.

Please tell me what to do?

What am I suppose to do?

I don't know what to do.