Saturday, February 23, 2013


Ok. It's been a while, and lots of shit has gone down.

I realize that I have not been posting very often. But, surprisingly, it's because I've been so busy.
And lazy too.
I admit.

I have plenty of time off and should be using that to nurture all of my creative endeavors. But I have been focusing all of my creative attention on Burlesque. Don't get me wrong, I am more than thrilled that the outcome of all of my hard word has been so positive. In less than a year, I have performed in numerous shows all over New York and surrounding States. I have placed in competitions, performed in the New York Burlesque Festival, and was nominated for Hottest Freshman at the Golden Pasties. I'm on my way to perform and compete in the Philadelphia Burlesque Festival in just a few weeks. Not to mention that I have become a regular member of 3 Burlesque companies including Wasabassco Burlesque. Poison Ivory has really began to make her presence known in the local burlesque community. I still can't really believe that it's happening.

I know it kinda looks like I'm bragging like an asshole. Sorry. That's not the point of this. I'm just realizing that putting my heart and soul into something has finally paid off. I spent so much of my life self sabotaging because I didn't feel that I was worth anything. Its just crazy how much has changed in the last year. That' all. Anyway... that's also not the point. My point is, now that I am here in California, visiting my family and friends for 2 weeks, I have decided to take that time to refocus on the parts of my life that fulfill me outside of burlesque. One of them being, this little ol' blog.

And this new focus could not have come at a better time because it is clear that I have forgotten how to complete a thought. I have gone on so many tangents, that I can barely remember what thought inspired me to take out my computer and write in the first place. I know it had something to do with... OH RIGHT!! Marriage. I was thinking about young marriage in particular. Like.. that barely legal to drink at your own wedding kinda young marriage. The kind that everybody doubts because you don't have enough life experience. What makes it last?

 I have been engaged 3 times, married once (But it didn't count), and have never been a wife. I remember each time I got engaged, I was so excited about the wedding. I went into dreamland where I began planning the wedding of my dreams and yadda yadda yadda. Point is, marriage never happened. But recently, I have begun to meet a lot of married couples, who are or were very young when they got married, who's marriages seem to be going fantastically.

One couple in particular, she is a performer as well, and her hubby is a supportive sweetie poo. Seriously though... they are great. They are my age, maybe a bit younger, have been together for 7 years, married for 6, and still look like newlyweds. It's amazing. I love the way she says "Yeah... we sure were quick to the alter". I don't know... maybe you have to be there. But it's cute. trust me. :)

Ok, I have a theory. Maybe, if a couple is really young, and they want to get married. A test for how much they really want to be together becomes apparent in the details. Not like.. what flavor the cake is, or the song that they will dance to, but in whether or not that stuff is important in the first place. I think, if a young couple is willing to forgo all of the glitz and glamour of a wedding, and willing to go down to city hall, then it's really meant to be. Not that they have to, but if they are willing to. Hell... I obviously don't know what I'm talking about.

yeah... I'm not even sure if I'm gonna waste time spellchecking this. It's like I'm starting to work out all over again... which I also need to start doing. :)